Friday, February 02, 2007


I'm tired. I am going on about 4 hours of sleep right now. My tummy feels funny. I have a headache. And I'm starving. This is all a direct result of yesterday's events. (See last post).

Stress makes me not want to eat. So food in general doesn't seem very appealing to me. It seems I should be thinking, "Hey! In that case, I should be eating healthy, low-cal stuff, like salad!" Alas, I fear there is nothing on earth that would ever make me actually want a salad. *gags*

In the past 24 hours, I've eaten about half of what I normally do. According to my scale, I've lost 4 pounds in one day. But I know that can't be right, so I am saying I've only lost two. Gotta love the stress diet.

To make it even sweeter, Repo got dumped yesterday. As a consequence, I was also deleted from his friends list. (F**ker beat me to it.) I can't say that I wasn't happy to hear the news. I grinned like an idiot all afternoon. I wouldn't be human if I wasn't happy to hear it. Now I am left with pity for the girlfriend and resentment towards him. I've definitely had 100% closure at this point. I hope his dick falls off, to be perfectly honest. At least then, he would start thinking with his brain and possibly do something productive with his life.

But you know what? I'm done. Done talking about him, thinking about him, spending energy on him. I've done that entirely too much already. He's not worth my time or my energy. So I'll change the subject. He is dead to me.

I bought an iPod Shuffle the other day. One of the tiny clip-on ones, so I can use it at the gym. But my computer won't recognize that there is new hardware. And iTunes won't, either. I think that this is because my home computer is about 4 years old, and the USB ports aren't the right kind. So it's not even charging. Grrrrr....

Any iPod experts out there? Can anyone help me? Should I buy a charger and charge the iPod first and then try again on my computer? Or should I just return it/think about getting a new computer? I don't want to do my iTunes on my work computer for several reasons which I won't get into right now.

I'd love to get a new home computer, but I'd also like a new mattress set, a savings account, slipcovers for my couch, less credit card debt, brakes for my car....I could go on and on. So a new computer is both expensive and non-necessary. Besides, if I do get one, I'd want a laptop, which is even more expensive. (Can anyone recommend one, while I'm on the subject?)

I think this is where gambling addictions come from. Because lottery ticket investment is sounding good to me right now. I just need about $10k and I would be set.

Surprisingly, the first thing I would do if presented with $10k right now would be to take a friggin nap. I'm exhausted. I went out from 9am to 1am last night. I had fun, but I'm hating life today. Headache, stomach ache...etc. Just from stress and exhaustion. I went to Wild Wings downtown to meet up with Nurse P for a quick drink. But the 90s cover band, Tokyo Joe, was so loud, it was bothering my headache and my queasy stomach. So I said goodbye to her and went to meet up with MJ at a jazz/cigar bar called The Speakeasy. They had a Sinatra-ish/Big Band type band. Much kinder to my head, and quiet enough for me to fill MJ and KT in on The Repo Situation. They were shocked and appalled by his behavior, and very supportive of my decision. Then we chain smoked and bashed him for about a half hour.

This is why I love my girlfriends.

We decided to go back to Wild Wings because although I currently despise men, there were a lot of cuties there. I can hate and still look. Soon I was so hungry, my stomach was growling and my hands were shaky. I was not feeling well at all. It was bedtime.

So I collapse into my bed, thinking, "Oh, I'm so tired, I should fall right to sleep." Nope. Insomnia. Going over and over in my head all of what had happened that day. Getting worked up about it and feeling guilty and angry and depressed. And I was too hungry to sleep because my stomach was growling, but too lazy to get up and do something about it. So I just tossed and turned until I fell asleep about 45 minutes later.

I think I'm going to go home early. As in, in the next 10 minutes. Blech.

But let me tell you my weekend plans: tonight I'm meeting up with my girls W & E for happy hour again. We did it last week, too, and I just love these two chicks to pieces. We have a lot to catch up on! Then I'm meeting up later with MJ so we can go see our favorite bluegrass band, Loch Ness Johnny.

I think I have plans for Saturday, but I'm too tired to remember what they are right now. If you are reading this, and you are planning on hanging out with me sometime tomorrow, you're going to have to give me a reminder call. Obviously.

Sunday is, of course, The Superbowl. I know MJ will hate me, but I'm rooting for The Colts. (To my credit, I was rooting for Da Bears until the Colts won!) Nurse P and Brunette are coming to my house to watch the game and help me get rid of my leftover beer.

Ugh, ok, I'm done. Naptime......


Megan said...

get some rest and take care of yourself!

cmk said...

The Dell Inspiron E1505 is a nice little laptop starting at $799. Depending on what you want to use it for, this could last you for many years.

The Dummy said...

Get that rest! You need it. I'm not an iPod expert, unfortunately. I use a Sandisk Sansa - it's like the Nano, but for Windows dorks like me.

btw, how'd you do with the workouts? We haven't seen you at the roll call yet.

mysmileisfake said...

VB, it seems like you need to upgrade your computer to USB 2.0 (it was out at 2003, so about 1 year after you got your computer)

In order to use your new sweet ipod shuffle,
- Go to your local computer shop, get a USB 2.0 PCI card. (~ $30 US) keywords=USB+2.0+PCI+Card+&Go.x=5&Go.y=5

- Power off your computer, unplug it and take the back cover off.
- Look for a free slot that will allow you to insert your USB PCI card in, then insert it gently and firmly.
(You may have to take a slot protector off which should looks like a piece of metal.)
- Screw the card in place
- Power up your computer (leave the cover off now just in case) and install any software (CD)
that came with the card.
- If everything works perfectly, power it off again and put back the cover.

Anonymous said...

Congratulations. You broke them up...supposedly. It seems to me that you had some kind of fantasy in your head that obviously wasn't going to be fulfilled since he was dating someone else....not you. Genius idea. It's nice that you're having a pity party for yourself, when in fact, you were the person on the side. You should feel worse for the girlfriend. You just weren't happy with him being happy so you ruined it for everyone. You better get on the hunt for someone new before he finds one. So again, congratulations.

Burg said...

Again, good for you for doing the right thing! He screwed himself when he chose the low road...

anonymous- If you weren't such a pussy you'd put a name with your ignorant post. Then again, if I had the reading comprehension problem that you obviously do, I don't think I'd want to put a name with it either.

lenfercestlesautres said...

what, you can't use iPods if you don't have USB 2.0? Crap.

RWA said...

Hilarious. You despise men right now - but you can still hate and look.

SJ said...

You know, as much as you feel bad right now, you did the right thing, you didn't know, and the other girl has a right to know he's been a cheating jerk. She might be upset now, but she knows it's the best thing that could have happened. And same for you too, I really hope you never go back to him, never justify it and just never do it! And as far as how you handled the situation (i.e. going out and getting tore up) that pretty much seems ideal to me too! Hope you're feeling better now, physically anyways, I am sure the emotional toil will be there for awhile, but you'll be just fine! :)

Joie de Vivre said...

Good on you, the girls will always cheer you up. Get rested up ready for next night out.

I don't hear any pity partying going on, anon needs to grow balls and out him/herself.

M said...

You have gone out more in one week than I have in three months. If I go to the bar a few times a year, that is quite enough. I used to go every weekend but I am tired of it now. Hope you felt better and had a great weekend.

Jonathan said...


acaligurl said...

girlfriends are good for the soul. repo man got dumped? ha ha. i thought the girlfriend might give him another chance, good for her!
ya know what beyonce says " i can have another you in a minute"

i love that song.

repo took you off the friends list? wah wah, he got busted.

teahouse said...

Yeah, hope you got some sleep this weekend! And you must be psyched that your team won!