Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Crap!

Well, crap.

Ok, remember how I was waiting to hear if I got to teach a class this fall? And if I got to teach the class, I could quit my part time job at Dildo's? And then I wouldn't have to work weekends anymore? Well...

I didn't get a class.

So now, I am stuck at Dildo's. Unless I can find another part time job. One that doesn't suck. I hope it's soon. I am getting really tired of Dildo's. And there's no way I'm working there over the holidays. I have worked retail during the holidays before, and it's a nightmare.

Y'all, I am really bummed about this!!! I guess I got my hopes up. I knew I shouldn't have done that. Because you know what happens when you do that. Counting chickens, etc.

It's not like this is the end of the world, but I'm starting to get really burned out and was really looking forward to having more free time. But now, after paying off about $2,000 in credit card debt, I'm kind of hooked on watching my balances go down, you know? I don't want to quit now. I'm just starting to make a big dent!!! 25% of my credit card debt is GONE. That is a good feeling!!

I can quit whenever I want. Yadda yadda. But it's hard to quit when you want to pay down debt. And it's really nice to have that extra money around when little emergencies come up (example: my car battery died the other day) or when you want to treat yourself to gorgeous handbags*. I can pay for these things without breaking a sweat. Since I have budgeted paying $500-600/month on my credit cards, but my Dildo's job sometimes pays more (because they work me to death), I usually have an extra $100/week to spend on crap. I like buying crap. Crap makes me happy. Not the dammit-will-I-ever-get-to-quit-this-stupid-job crap, but the look-how-freaking-fabulous-my-new-bag-is crap.

Ugh, this is such a blow to my morale. You have no idea how much I have been day dreaming about sleeping in on Saturdays, lazy Sunday afternoons where I read a book on my couch, weekend trips, a clean house, having time to work out again...*sigh*

I guess I will just have to keep my eyes peeled for a better part time job, and maybe cross my fingers that I can teach a class in the spring.

At least now I won't have to worry about whether or not CN and I will take a trip over Labor Day weekend. Dildo's settled it for me: I will get to work extra-long hours that weekend, thanks to our Labor Day sale.

Crap!!!!! This sucks donkey balls!!!!! Please leave me cheery and encouraging comments! I am bummed out!!!

* I have this purse, in a beautiful pearlescent white leather, on hold at Dildo's right now. Thanks to our kick-ass sale going on at the moment, instead of $248, I can buy it for $87. WOOT!

9 comments:

RWA said...

Hey, being able to "buy crap" when you want to "buy crap" is a good thing. I know. I do it all the time.

Like you said, the money - and getting out of debt - is worth it. It doesn't have to last forever.

sassafras said...

Ugh. I hate to see you so miserable! Please look for other jobs. What about tutoring or something like that?

I don't think you have to be so unhappy while paying down your debt.

Good luck!

Stella said...

What if you worked your balls off through Christmas and then quit after New Years? Would you have everything paid off? You know, like going out in a blaze of glory and then quitting the second job thing altogether in the new year.

Smug said...

So sorry that you did not get the class! I have all kinds of not-so-fond memories of when I was working two (and sometimes 3) jobs, so I totally feel your pain! You will get through this at some point and feel so good about yourself when all that debt is paid off!!

Becky said...

omg i need a 2nd job so i can buy handbags all the live long day

Random Musings Of My Life said...

UGGG I too work a crappy pt job so I can "buy crap" read: Shoes...
But paying off debt feels pretty damn good too.
You are being very smart about this young lady..

JP said...

Oh VB, I'm so sorry you didn't get the job. What about serving at a local country club? You'd see some amazing weddings and events!

teahouse said...

Hey, I'm sorry about the job!! But paying down debt is a great incentive.

Virginia Belle said...

rwa -- yes, i usually feel that way, but i have the occasional day where i'm like, "ok, i can't take it any more! i need a break!" If i stay at Dildo's for a year, i should be debt-free by the end of it. i doubt i will last that long...

sassafras -- yeah, i'm trying to find something better. but pickings are slim...and keep in mind that i'm being a whiner. :P

stella -- yes, this is my other strategy...i might end up going about it that way...

smug -- yes, it's such a great feeling. i love seeing that balance drop!! it is like crack to me!

becky -- yeah, it's nice, but i need to stop. acting like that is why i need a 2nd job to begin with! i am shooting myself in the foot. typical.

random -- thank you. now if only i could start acting like an adult and quit my bitching...

JP -- you know, that's not a bad idea. it would probably only be a Saturday night thing...hmmm...thanks for the idea!

teahouse -- yes, it certainly is! as soon as they are paid off, i am cutting these little fuckers up! credit cards are EVIL.