Sunday, November 29, 2009

I'm Not Dead!

Hello, out there! I wonder if I have any readers left. I will assume I am talking to myself. Let's see. What has been going on in the last 2 months?

1. One of my coworkers (remember, the one who was kind of cute, but was really flaking out at work?) was fired. No probation, no serious warning -- just BAM! You're fired. This kind of put everyone on edge, like, "OMG, who is next??" -- but he really was doing a crappy job at work. No one was very surprised. The thing that stinks is that we were all friends w/him. So we are all kind of worried about him. He's been pretty down lately, so we have been concerned. Especially after he was offered a job at NYU and he turned it down. (Whaaa??). One of my coworkers did hang out w/him about a week ago, and she told me his plan is to move to Virginia Beach and open up a bar with one of his friends. This sounds a little weak to me, but who knows. I wish him the best. He's a really nice guy, so I hope he lands on his feet.

I also got a new boss. My old boss, who I love, is now my boss's boss. Anyway, my new boss rocks, too, so it's all good. I love my job. Even though it is really stressful, I love it.

2. CN (should I even call him that anymore? Perhaps "Ex Who is Now My Roommate" would be better?) and I are still on good terms, but we do each have our own little sad moments where we are reminded that we are not together. And our own little moments where we act like we are still together (no, not like that!). Which makes for an emotionally draining and frustrating environment. I can't really feel single when we are still roommates. It's not emotionally healthy for us to live together, and we have both brought this up at different times. But the financial situation keeps us together. Rent is very expensive here in Savannah, unless you want to live with a roommate (an option I do not have currently) or in the ghetto (I am willing to pay a lot of rent to be safe, so this also is not really an option). I am tempted to encourage him to move out (he has been thinking about it lately), if only for my sanity so I can get back to being "me" and not "we".

I feel kind of guilty for saying this, but I am feeling ready to date again. Whether I am really ready to do that remains unclear, but I definitely have the urge to go somewhere and flirt with cute guys. If CN knew this, it would crush him. I know my desire to get back on the horse will only get worse, and then what? Tell my date that I have an interesting living situation? Ugh. Introduce CN as my roommate? Double ugh.

So I think perhaps I will encourage him to go, suck it up financially, and get back to being Single VB. Then, in August, when the lease is up, I can find a cheaper place to live. My mom, my big sister and both of my aunts all think I am crazy for living like this. I am beginning to agree with them.

3. I didn't go home for Thanksgiving. It's an 8 hour drive, and I just didnt' feel like driving all that way. I really wanted a nice long weekend all to myself. And that's what I got. Selfish, I know, but work has been bonkers lately, and the last thing I wanted to do was stress out from driving on I-95 during Thanksgiving traffic. CN has been at his mom's house all weekend. This has been the Best Weekend Ever. I have totally relaxed, puttered around the house, slept in, cooked, read my book....aaaaaah. One of my coworkers wasn't going anywhere, either, so she and her hubby made a turkey and all the fixings, and we chowed down. It was sooo good.

4. I got a new cell phone and I love it. The salesman told me I would be addicted to it, and he was right. It's the Google Android MyTouch phone from T Mobile. I heart it. I don't know much about how it works, but I am having fun learning all about it. I have fun games, email, facebook, apps, etc. all on my phone. It is very cool. I highly recommend this phone if you are looking for one.

Um, I think that's about it for now. I am still working all the time, leaving me with little energy at the end of the day. I am slowing becoming interested in getting back to the gym after my...(I am ashamed to say it!) 11 month absence. The diet motivation is still MIA, unfortunately. But I do have the urge to run again, which is a good sign. I know exercise = energy, and that is a big motivator for me right now. I am sick of just working and sleeping and working and sleeping. I feel like I have no life outside of work sometimes. I need to be maximizing my day and going out of the house and meeting new people.

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging much. At all, really. CN uses the computer a LOT lately, and now he has to work mandatory overtime for his job, so he doesn't get off the computer until like, 7:30pm, and I just don't feel like blogging then. I like to blog right when I get home from work. I will try harder, I promise. And if CN moves out, and I have to choose between cable and internet, I will get internet. :)


Len said...

I'm still reading! I'm glad you're okay.

Smug said...

Glad to hear that things are on the upswing. I think that the urge to date again is part of the healing process and might be a needed boost to your self esteem! CN will need to deal with it if he continues to live with you, but it does sound like the time has come for him to move out.

teahouse said...

Yes, I've been checking in on you periodically as well! Glad things are going well and time is marching forward.

I agree with your mom and sister and aunts are right - this living situation should end sooner rather than later. Here in NYC there are a lot of people who end up living with their exes because of high housing costs, and it's always stressful and difficult. Once you have a clean break, you'll probably feel really relieved.

So proud of you and how strong you are. Keep posting, because there are those of us out here who do care!!!

kimmykins13 said...

It's great that things seem to be smooth between you and CN. At least ya'll can be friends which I think is nice.
Tell your friend that Virginia Beach is probably not the place to be opening a bar right now. The beach will be completely dead soon. Thanksgiving is the last hurrah and it wasn't even that populated. We've been affected by the economic downturn like everyone ese and being a destination resort area VB didn't bring in nearly the revenue that it generally does this year/summer.
Glad you had a nice relaxing T-day weekend!!!!

Lexie Lou said...

I also keep checking in occasionally. Glad to hear things are still going pretty good!

Becky said...

man it's been a while since i've checked on you. i was wondering how things are. i think you're right...CN needs to get out. you need to be on your own. it's better that way. hopefully in august you can do this :)

columbiacitygirl said...

I've been checking in too....glad you are doing okay.

Scotty said...

Glad to hear you're doing ok :)

No cable for me, only internet!

Coco said...

Yeah! It always makes me smile to read your blog, so I'm glad you are back, however briefly. I kind of lost the mojo to type on my blog too, so I get it.

Glad you are making it out the other side of craziness . . . sort of. :)

Snooch said...

I'm also checking you daily! :)

Right now just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas! :)

Sam said...

Still here!! Merry Christmas and Happy New Years!

Snooch said...

Happy New Year to you!